Dear Chaya, It seems like a miracle to me that you are five months old. You are really changing and growing up so much, and it’s the most lovely thing. We started off the month with a bit of difficulty – I’d managed to boost my supply, so you were getting more breastmilk but you […]
The other night I sat in my car at the traffic lights. It was drizzly with rain – my favourite weather – and I appreciated the way the lights looked through my rainy windshield. I was nearly at my daughter’s kindy, ready for a committee meeting, and I looked out into the distance. I recognised […]
A snippet of our January 2019.
My Chaya, my life. I feel grateful that Hashem believed I was capable enough to be trusted with her. All of her. I’m grateful that every day she makes improvements in the way she feeds. I’m grateful that she was born in 2019 – in a time when people understand so much about babies. I’m […]
My youngest daughter had her tongue tie snipped on Friday. It was a cause of anxiety leading up to it (mostly because of other people’s question to be honest), and a whole lot of nothing on the day. Being a mum is funny like that. I wish I’d documented all of Chaya’s feeding and health […]
At my last chiro session we did a series of positions and meditations on our true self, and opening our heart to our true selves. This is a concept that isn’t foreign to Judaism. In Judaism we call it Teshuva, and while there’s a time of year (Elul) when it’s most potent and critical, it’s […]
Dear Chaya, Here we are, four months old. I love you so much. SO SO SO much. Your smile is absolutely amazing, and it makes my heart flutter. This month your brothers and sister went back to school and kindy so three days a week it’s just us for a few hours. It’s nice to […]
I think what I want most right now is to be able to spend my days pumping milk, doing Chaya’s exercises, staring into her mystifying eyes, and being enchanted by her beautiful smile. I’ve been thinking a lot about priorities and the content reminder that I am not superwoman, and can’t do it all. Which […]
Dear Chaya, this has been one of the longest months of my life, and this last week especially feels longer than nearly your entire life before this. We finally have some answers about your slow / non existent weight gain, which is great to have a light at the end of the tunnel. But it […]
Dear CC, You love to smile, cuddle and be wrapped up tight. You’re completely different to your siblings in so many ways. Unique. Fourth time around and apparently there’s still plenty for me to learn as a mother, a co-parent, and human being. Hashem is teaching me so much through you, and even when it’s […]