Dear Chaya // 1 month

Dear Chaya,

You are one month old! I’m not exaggerating when I say that you are one of the best things to happen in our family. Your three older siblings absolutely adore you and love you and dote on you. Your daddy and I are totally in love, and thank Hashem every day that you are in our family.

CC, at one month old you have eyes the are clearly a blue ring on the outside and brown on the inside. You are a skinny girl, but we’re trying to fatten you up! You love to stay in the little froggy pose you were in when inside me, and you are easily comforted with a dummy and being held close. You like it when I sway side to side with you wrapped up tightly or holding your hands, and you also like it when we bounce on the fit ball with you.

I have to mention that your first four weeks have been marked with lots of appointments. You see, after your first initial weight loss in week 1, you had failed to gain more than 5 grams by 2 ½ weeks. Now that you’re 4 weeks you’ve gained 70 grams total, and I’m sorry to say, it’s not enough! Everyone is both worried and puzzled by you! We’ve done a blood test (not fun!), stool sample, eliminated dairy, soy, gluten and eggs from my diet and started topping you up with expressed breast milk – 150ml a day on top of your normal breastfeeds. Your poos have been green and mucusy, sometimes frothy, and causing you a bit of pain. This makes the Paed think that you have a food intolerance and so we’re starting with the most likely – dairy.

While you’re not quite the enthusiastic breastfeeder your siblings are, you still enjoy it, and have been getting better at having longer and more meaningful feeds. I’ve taken some herbs to boost my supply, and this coupled with the milk expressing makes us (by us, I mean Daddy, me, your grandparents, my midwives, the hospital, and the private paediatrician!!) think that this isn’t a milk supply problem (you actually gain quite a bit of weight during a feed, but use it all up by the next day! Such a puzzle!). Anyway, all this to say that we are not sure what’s up! In a few weeks I will have been off dairy for a month, and the Paed thinks you’ll be better by then. I really hope it’s true! In the mean time this week I have an insane amount of poop and wee to collect from you to send off for testing!

Edited with Afterlight

Chaya, I think about the day you were born. I remember talking to you when you were still inside me. I remember that sweet feeling you gave me, reassuring me that you loved me and were ready to enter the world. You name means “life”, and I am sure, without a doubt, that you are absolutely FULL of life. I know you are a healer, that as you grow up you will get great insight from Hashem on how to heal people with medicines and the like. I know you are part of my healing journey.

You are so beautiful, and sweet and perfect. You make me want to have a hundred more babies! When I hold you I often think “Ooh, baby. I want a baby!” and then I remember that YOU are my baby, and you are all mine, and I do a big happy dance inside and say thanks to Hashem again that you are mine. I am so in love. You are so deserving of all the love and attention and kindness. You are a special baby.

Every day one or all of your siblings ask to hold you. Lior even carried you from one room to another! Ahava is desperate to, but we won’t let her yet. Eli is happy just to sit and hold you. He really adores you. They all do. I love it when I ask one of the boys to sit and hold you or lie next to you and mind you while I do a quick job, and then listen to the sweet nothings they say to you. Just showering you with their sweet words and kind gazes. Ahava loves to give you your bottles when we top you up with expressed breast milk.

Chaya Sefira, you are a precious soul. I look forward to seeing you grow and us continuing to be the great team we were in pregnancy and childbirth, and now through these rough waves. We will always be a great team.

May you live to 120 sweet girl. Hashem has great plans for you, I’m sure of it. xo

Cooking with kids for Rosh Hashanah – Honey Joys

These are one of my favourite treats – so easy to make and the kids love helping. They don’t have to look good, and there’s no expensive ingredients, so you’ve got nothing to loose!

90g butter
1/3 cup sugar
1 tbs honey
4 cups corn flakes

Melt butter, honey and sugar in a saucepan unti frothy. Mix into the corn flakes (make sure all the corn flakes are covered, or they won’t stick together.
Put into patty pans, and cook in a moderate oven for 10 minutes.

Keep in an air tight container (do not refrigerate or freeze).

Officially Jewish – Baruch HaShem!

Baruch HaShem, on the 19th of Elul 5779 (19th of September 2019) our family met with the Beth Din in Sydney, Australia and we were accepted for our Orthodox Jewish conversion! For now, here’s one or two photos. 🙂

That evening, on the 20th of Elul we got married! It was a crazy intense emotional whirlwind experience, which I can’t wait to write and share more on!


Rosh Hashanah 5780 2 Day Menu

First up, I just wanted to share how I’m planning out my Rosh Hashanah prep. This year we have Shabbat, then Saturday night and Sunday free to prepare, then the 2 days of Yomin Tomim. SO, my priority for Sunday is to tidy the house a little post Shabbat (anyone else’s house get SO messy on Shabbat?!), and then prioritise decorating the table, and preparing hot food for the first night.

Tuesday through to Friday will be preparing food for the rest of the Yomin Tovim (and Shabbat). It’s school holidays, so hopefully the kids will be able to play around the cooking, and do some holiday crafts we can use as decorations for Rosh Hashanah and maybe transfer into the Sukkah as well!

Here’s the 2 day menu including some snack and dip ideas!

Rosh Hashanah Night One (Meat)

  • Seder plate tasting, plus challah.
  • Matzah Ball Soup
  • Salmon skewers
  • Pomegranate brisket
  • DF apple layer cake

Rosh Hashanah Day One Lunch (Dairy)

  • Challah (dairy!) plus dips
  • Zucchini soup with basil (DF)
  • Baked apples with custard

Rosh Hashanah Night Two (Pescatarian, Dairy free)

  • Challah plus dips & salatim
  • Roast Veg with couscous and salmon (whole fillet each)
  • Apple Tarte Tatin (dairy)

Rosh Hashanah Day Two Lunch (Meat)

  • Challah
  • Hommus bowls with spiced minced meat
  • Side salad
  • Fruit salad

Dip and Snack Ideas

  • Honey joys (v)
  • Hommus (DF)
  • Beet hommus (DF)
  • Sweet potato and cashews (DF)
  • Pesto (DF)
  • Lots of apples!! (DF)

Rosh Chodesh Av

Chodesh Tov! It’s the Rosh Chodesh of Av and I’m pumped to get into this month and delve deep!

My goals for Av are to really be IN the 9 days and feel all the feelings and connect with Am Israel in this way. Also to explore my personal chasm between my body & neshama.

My other goal is to prioritise showing my husband a bit of extra love this month with some small acts of kindness and appreciation. 🙂

Looking for Rosh Chodesh info? Check out these resources below:

  1. At The Well’s moon manuals:

  2. Shimona Tzukernik on

  3. Emails from Mindy Ribner: (email her to get on the list)

Plastic Free July – Half Way Through!

We’re half way through Plastic Free July!

I thought I would share with you some of the easier, more difficult and neutral things we’ve found so far doing this challenge.

Are you doing this as a family? I’d love to hear how you’re going! Also, the kids are going to do a Q&A at the end of the month so if you have a question for them drop it either in these comments, on the video, or over at our instagram – @sustainablejudaism