I think what I want most right now is to be able to spend my days pumping milk, doing Chaya’s exercises, staring into her mystifying eyes, and being enchanted by her beautiful smile.
I’ve been thinking a lot about priorities and the content reminder that I am not superwoman, and can’t do it all. Which sucks, because I like being superwoman and doing it all. And I tell myself constantly that I CAN. That others may have failed, but I can succeed.
My ideal scenario is not even remotely realistic of course. I have other commitments, and people to feed. Myself included. I suck at feeding myself the most of anyone. And that’s a pretty big deal considering Chaya can’t breastfeed.