Dear Chaya // 2 Months

Dear CC,


You love to smile, cuddle and be wrapped up tight. You’re completely different to your siblings in so many ways. Unique. Fourth time around and apparently there’s still plenty for me to learn as a mother, a co-parent, and human being. Hashem is teaching me so much through you, and even when it’s so hard I break, I still pick myself up, look into your eyes and smile because I love you. You are a calm and peaceful baby and adored by all who meet you, and especially those of us lucky enough to live with you. You’re sunshine CC.

This month you have gained some weight! Baruch HaShem! You are gaining weight nicely now that you are on a special allergy formula – Novalac. At the time of your 2 month birthday this formula accounts for about 75% of your feeds. You have some pretty hard core nipple confusion and preference for the bottle, which has contributed to this high percentage of formula. Bottle feeding a baby is a very new experience for me, and there are some benefits I suppose (not least the fact that you’re gaining weight!), but I miss breastfeeding, and really feel strongly that because of your allergies breastmilk is the best thing for you (once the allergens are removed). The main ingredient in this formula is glucose syrup followed by various vegetable oils, so it’s not exactly the most nutritious stuff. Though certainly better than nothing!

This month you more or less stopped breastfeeding. I still offer you the breast regularly, before every feed, and if you’re fussy. But you rarely take it. Sometimes you put it in your mouth, and just don’t seem to suck, and other times you fuss and won’t even close your mouth to latch. We’re seeing a LC in January (Bli Neder) to try and get this going again. I am expressing at most feeds, so my supply is still… existing, but not great. I had a hospital trip, and some general illness this month which has left my supply lacking by the end of the month. I am so so hopeful that we can pick up breastfeeding again soon!

On the 5th of December, at exactly 6 weeks I weighed you once again after giving you 150mL of top up (either formal or EBM) a day on top of breastfeeds for a week. And guess what?! You gained! I took you off the scales and you gave me your first smile! It was big, and wonderful and I felt like we were connected, and you could feel my joy and relief that for the first time in your life you’d gained weight!

Since then you’ve been showering everyone with beautiful big smiles, and it is just wonderful. Your siblings love to try and make you smile!

We have been continuing with your osteo appointments, but stopped mid way through this month. The Osteo has done all she can for now, and I’m focusing on just fattening you up, and getting you back on the breast. We can re-visit these appointments later.

Edited with Afterlight

The paediatrician referred us to an immunologist, but we can’t get in to see him until June! It will be helpful to get your tested before we put you on too many solids, but it doesn’t really help me figure out what foods you’re currently allergic or intolerant to.

We got the stool samples back and it showed you definitely have a cow’s milk allergy. But it can’t tell us about any other foods. At the moment I am off the following foods (some are just for my own personal intolerances, and some are for you!): All dairy, soy, eggs, wheat and gluten, almonds, peanuts, and coconut. I still have macadamia milk occasionally. By now they should all be almost completely out of our systems. I’m very strict with these.

You are currently celebrating your first Chanukah, which is pretty special! You also had your first visitors (other than family) – Ada & Harvey came to see you, as well as Jaelle and Ori. You’re a bit… clingy (especially in the evenings), but you have given Rachel quite a few cuddles, as they visit us every other week at the moment (yay!).

Pa has also been getting some lovely long sleeping cuddles from you in the day, as has Grandma, who is our lifesaver – coming down to help out and entertain your sister, pick up your brothers from school (it’s holidays now, yay!), and look after you while I got to my Chiro appointments.

Even with all these health problems, and feeding problems and clingy-ness, I think it’s fair to say that you’re pretty chill, and pretty wonderful! You are like an open book – easy to read and a clear communicator. Everyone loves you, and I get such nachas when I leave you on the mat and your brothers and sisters entertain you for a while. The kids at school adore you, as do their parents, and I am so immensely proud of you and love showing you off.

I love you sweet Chaya. I’m so glad we called you “life” – may you have it till 120, and may the one who gave you life, Hashem, also give you healing.

Love Mama

Goodbye 2019

2019 – The year of baby. In Feb (maybe?!) I found out I was pregnant with CC, then we found out we were having another girl, and then in October we got to meet that sweet babe in a calm and powerful home birth! What a delight! I feel like I missed most of the pregnancy due to other major events happening, and even though I don’t think it could have happened any other way, I kinda wish it had, because I love being pregnant (was absolutely not saying this in the first or last few weeks of the pregnancy!!)

Becoming a family of 6 feels so surreal, and so right. She was always destined to be here with us, and I’m so grateful for my family. 

2019 – The year of stress. Lots of work changes for Luke, a hectic time converting to Judaism, and then finishing it all off with a stressful 7 weeks of dealing with Chaya’s ongoing health concerns. So yeah, a lot of stress. Hopefully no permanent long term damage to my health!

2019 – The year of growth and change for my big 3. Ahava’s language really blossomed, Eli thrived at school more than we could have possibly anticipated, and Lior also had a great year doing what he loves – learning. Both boys received auspicious principal’s awards (Eli semester 1, Lior semester 2). Outside of school all three biggies made great progress with their swimming and water confidence, and with their Hebrew studies at Cheder. 

2019 – The year of Judaism. In June we finished our studies in our conversion program, in September we flew down to Sydney to do our final interview, enter the mikvah, and get married. We have all made major changes to our life and observance this year, and even though we often make mistakes or lack in areas we are always striving to be better and love Hashem always. I’m so proud of the kids for embracing every step of the process without complaint or regret. Even when it involved some pretty significant sacrifices from the boys! 

2019 – The year of nourish. My word for 2019 was nourish and even though this year was hard on my brain and my body, I’m actually so thankfully I had this word with me, because it helped keep me on track as best I could! I didn’t keep up with the prompts in the course, but I used my word each week to make sure I was nourishing myself and my health in some way and not letting things get too out of control. 

All up I remember 2019 as a year of many many accomplishments. Accomplishments don’t come with effort and sacrifice, so I could very reasonably look back on 2019 as a hard year too, but what’s the point in that?

Finishing the year more grateful than ever for Hashem’s hand in everything we do – guiding us and leading us. For my parents (especially my mum!) for being such huge helpers with adapting to life as a family of 6. For our life – some may look in on it and think we’re not hitting the right goals, but I know we are. I’ve never been more sure that we’re doing everything perfectly in His timing. 

No Knead Bread

This bread is an absolute favourite for both lunch boxes and gifts. Be careful when you make it, because eating it whilst still warm is highly addictive, and you might not have much left!

The method is a little confusing, so if you’re still unsure how to do it then go to my instagram – @taliacarbis and look for the “no knead bread” highlight. I’ve got it all laid out there for you!

Ingredients:

  • 3 cups bread flour
  • 1 ⅝ cup water (just over 1 ½ cups)
  • ¼ tsp yeast
  • 1 ¼ tsp salt

Method:

  1. Combine all the bread ingredients (flour, yeast, salt and water) into a bowl and mix through with your fingers until combined. There is no need to knead this dough at all or do anything to it once you’ve combined it all! It should be a really rough, shaggy dough.
  2. Cover it with a clean tea towel and leave it for 12-14 hours at room temperature.
  3. When this approximate time is up wet your hands, then take some of the dough and fold it over itself. Do this four times (pretend it’s a square and do each side). Repeat every half an hour till you’ve done it 3 times.
  4. When the dough is ready it should be covered in bubbles and a fair bit bigger than the original size. Flour your bench and put your dough out to rest. Fold it over a few times and cover it with the plastic wrap for 15 minutes.
  5. Coat a tea towel with plenty of flour and place your ball of dough onto it. Fold your tea towel over so it covers the dough. Leave it to rise for 1 hour.
  6. At the same time turn your oven on to 250ºC. Put a cast iron or ceramic pot into the oven (not the lid) and leave it to heat for at least 1/2 an hour. By this time the rising time for your dough should be up!
  7. Carefully take the pot out of the oven and uncover your bread. Use the tea towel to turn your bread into the hot, hot, hot pot. Put the lid on and bake for 30 minutes. Take the lid off and back for another 15 – 30 minutes until the loaf is beautiful and brown.
  8. Cool on a rack, then eat!

Dear Chaya // 1 month

Dear Chaya,

You are one month old! I’m not exaggerating when I say that you are one of the best things to happen in our family. Your three older siblings absolutely adore you and love you and dote on you. Your daddy and I are totally in love, and thank Hashem every day that you are in our family.

CC, at one month old you have eyes the are clearly a blue ring on the outside and brown on the inside. You are a skinny girl, but we’re trying to fatten you up! You love to stay in the little froggy pose you were in when inside me, and you are easily comforted with a dummy and being held close. You like it when I sway side to side with you wrapped up tightly or holding your hands, and you also like it when we bounce on the fit ball with you.

I have to mention that your first four weeks have been marked with lots of appointments. You see, after your first initial weight loss in week 1, you had failed to gain more than 5 grams by 2 ½ weeks. Now that you’re 4 weeks you’ve gained 70 grams total, and I’m sorry to say, it’s not enough! Everyone is both worried and puzzled by you! We’ve done a blood test (not fun!), stool sample, eliminated dairy, soy, gluten and eggs from my diet and started topping you up with expressed breast milk – 150ml a day on top of your normal breastfeeds. Your poos have been green and mucusy, sometimes frothy, and causing you a bit of pain. This makes the Paed think that you have a food intolerance and so we’re starting with the most likely – dairy.

While you’re not quite the enthusiastic breastfeeder your siblings are, you still enjoy it, and have been getting better at having longer and more meaningful feeds. I’ve taken some herbs to boost my supply, and this coupled with the milk expressing makes us (by us, I mean Daddy, me, your grandparents, my midwives, the hospital, and the private paediatrician!!) think that this isn’t a milk supply problem (you actually gain quite a bit of weight during a feed, but use it all up by the next day! Such a puzzle!). Anyway, all this to say that we are not sure what’s up! In a few weeks I will have been off dairy for a month, and the Paed thinks you’ll be better by then. I really hope it’s true! In the mean time this week I have an insane amount of poop and wee to collect from you to send off for testing!

Edited with Afterlight

Chaya, I think about the day you were born. I remember talking to you when you were still inside me. I remember that sweet feeling you gave me, reassuring me that you loved me and were ready to enter the world. You name means “life”, and I am sure, without a doubt, that you are absolutely FULL of life. I know you are a healer, that as you grow up you will get great insight from Hashem on how to heal people with medicines and the like. I know you are part of my healing journey.

You are so beautiful, and sweet and perfect. You make me want to have a hundred more babies! When I hold you I often think “Ooh, baby. I want a baby!” and then I remember that YOU are my baby, and you are all mine, and I do a big happy dance inside and say thanks to Hashem again that you are mine. I am so in love. You are so deserving of all the love and attention and kindness. You are a special baby.

Every day one or all of your siblings ask to hold you. Lior even carried you from one room to another! Ahava is desperate to, but we won’t let her yet. Eli is happy just to sit and hold you. He really adores you. They all do. I love it when I ask one of the boys to sit and hold you or lie next to you and mind you while I do a quick job, and then listen to the sweet nothings they say to you. Just showering you with their sweet words and kind gazes. Ahava loves to give you your bottles when we top you up with expressed breast milk.

Chaya Sefira, you are a precious soul. I look forward to seeing you grow and us continuing to be the great team we were in pregnancy and childbirth, and now through these rough waves. We will always be a great team.

May you live to 120 sweet girl. Hashem has great plans for you, I’m sure of it. xo

Cooking with kids for Rosh Hashanah – Honey Joys

These are one of my favourite treats – so easy to make and the kids love helping. They don’t have to look good, and there’s no expensive ingredients, so you’ve got nothing to loose!

Ingredients:
90g butter
1/3 cup sugar
1 tbs honey
4 cups corn flakes

Melt butter, honey and sugar in a saucepan unti frothy. Mix into the corn flakes (make sure all the corn flakes are covered, or they won’t stick together.
Put into patty pans, and cook in a moderate oven for 10 minutes.

Keep in an air tight container (do not refrigerate or freeze).

Officially Jewish – Baruch HaShem!

Baruch HaShem, on the 19th of Elul 5779 (19th of September 2019) our family met with the Beth Din in Sydney, Australia and we were accepted for our Orthodox Jewish conversion! For now, here’s one or two photos. 🙂

That evening, on the 20th of Elul we got married! It was a crazy intense emotional whirlwind experience, which I can’t wait to write and share more on!

OUR JEWISH WEDDING – 20TH ELUL 5779

Rosh Hashanah 5780 2 Day Menu

First up, I just wanted to share how I’m planning out my Rosh Hashanah prep. This year we have Shabbat, then Saturday night and Sunday free to prepare, then the 2 days of Yomin Tomim. SO, my priority for Sunday is to tidy the house a little post Shabbat (anyone else’s house get SO messy on Shabbat?!), and then prioritise decorating the table, and preparing hot food for the first night.

Tuesday through to Friday will be preparing food for the rest of the Yomin Tovim (and Shabbat). It’s school holidays, so hopefully the kids will be able to play around the cooking, and do some holiday crafts we can use as decorations for Rosh Hashanah and maybe transfer into the Sukkah as well!

Here’s the 2 day menu including some snack and dip ideas!

Rosh Hashanah Night One (Meat)

  • Seder plate tasting, plus challah.
  • Matzah Ball Soup
  • Salmon skewers
  • Pomegranate brisket
  • DF apple layer cake

Rosh Hashanah Day One Lunch (Dairy)

  • Challah (dairy!) plus dips
  • Zucchini soup with basil (DF)
  • Baked apples with custard

Rosh Hashanah Night Two (Pescatarian, Dairy free)

  • Challah plus dips & salatim
  • Roast Veg with couscous and salmon (whole fillet each)
  • Apple Tarte Tatin (dairy)

Rosh Hashanah Day Two Lunch (Meat)

  • Challah
  • Hommus bowls with spiced minced meat
  • Side salad
  • Fruit salad

Dip and Snack Ideas

  • Honey joys (v)
  • Hommus (DF)
  • Beet hommus (DF)
  • Sweet potato and cashews (DF)
  • Pesto (DF)
  • Lots of apples!! (DF)